Why no avatar?

Yes, it's true; I don't use an 'real' picture as an avatar.
Am I hiding? not exactly... if I'm really honest with myself I'm not using an avatar because I don't like how I look. To be blunt, I'm overweight... and not a little overweight either, but what a doctor would call 'Morbidly obese' - in the 250 pound range or so. And after the close call I had with my kitty's health, I've taken a closer look at my own.

I don't like what I'm seeing.

It's not that I'm a big eater... the weight crept up over the last 10 years or so. It's that I eat the wrong things, at the wrong times, for the wrong reasons. I eat almost exclusively starches and sugars (mashed potatoes, YUM), and I don't eat on a schedule - my dinner is often at 10pm and after engorging myself (since I didn't eat much all day, choosing rather to sit in front of my computer and work) I fall asleep. Thus ensuring that my body turns every bit of what I ate, healthy or not, into nice big rolls of fat.

Lets face it, eating feels GOOD. I feel happy when I eat (one of the few times I actually feel good) so it's easy to have one more serving. Potatoes, stuffing AND rice? Sure, why not?

A year ago I picked up a really good book - at the time it was only available at the author's website, self-published, but it's now available on Amazon. Body Clutter is a great book which I'm going to recommit myself to reading AND following, and you faithful reader, are going to be stuck going along for the ride. I'm going to try writing my assignments right into the blog, with the hope that between understanding WHY I eat, and watching WHAT I eat (with a generous dollop of exercise thrown in) I can start to peel off some of these pounds. If I can get rid of, say 20 pounds, I'll pledge to take a picture of myself and use it for my avatar. How's that for motivation?